It's raining cats and...

not dogs :(  We still have yet to find my fat baby.  My mom went looking for him the other night, which I appreciate greatly.  It was so weird to not have him around for thanksgiving ready to chow down on his delicious turkey bone.

My dads birthday just passed on the 29th.  I told him happy birthday.  I went into the office to do branch work then I had to shoot to my other hustle, which led me to only see him for a minute that day.  He said it was just another day.  It is another day, but another day to be grateful that he is alive, isn't "lost", and can still perform most daily functions. He and my mom went to the mall and got him a gift, which he enjoyed.

Yesterday as I was leaving to head into the office my dad received a text from my uncle telling him happy birthday. So my dad asked him how he could text him back.  Dad has one of those cheap phones that you have to press the numerical pad 3 times to get to the letter you are trying to type, or set it to predictive text.  Explaining this to him was kind of odd, a small child would even understand how to do it. I basically had to respond to the text for him. I wonder if a smartphone would be a better idea; at least those are more intuitive.

Other random occurrences that have happened in the past few days:  Dad tries to wash his own dishes and put them away...on Thanksgiving as my mom was putting away the food she found a dirty tupperware.  She asked my dad not to put dirty dishes away.  I was sitting in the room with him and as she left, he looked at me and with all certainty said "I didn't do that."  Is that the dementia? Is that him thinking that he washed the dish completely? It might be a bit of both ::shrug::  He also hid some chips from when him and mom went to the movies up in one of the top cabinets in the corner.  Last thing is he put coffee in the water dispenser of the Keurig and tries to claim that he didn't do that either.  Now I know I didn't do it, Dez or my mom didn't.  Why would he do that?  Did he think he was using it properly? Was he trying to figure out how it functioned?  Either way he says he didn't do it, which is another response to question.  Now I have to remind him to leave the Keurig alone. I suppose that replaces the request to not over feed the dog.

I've also had to put the back gate key in my room to keep him from constantly going in the backyard to take one bottle back there at all times of the night and day, and to keep him from the weed killer, and also to make sure the gate remains closed and locked when no one is here.  I think it's safer that way for all parties involved.

I'm also on chapter 5 of My Stroke of Insight, which has provided me a bit more of the workings of the brain.  I'm thinking most of the lesions are on the left side of my dads brain...still have a lot more I need to read and understand at this point. One step at a time, I feel as though I'm getting there

Revelations

So I'm excited...I've been listening to this YouTube channel YouAreCreators and you know how YouTube will recommend similar videos and I happened upon (or did I) a video with Oprah chatting with Jill Bolte Taylor . The video was so inspiring and you know how when you listen to something or read something if it interests you you look for the agreement or how it applies to your life right?! As I'm listening to this maybe 90 minute interview I immediately begin connecting the dots with my dad and his ailment and Jill who had a stroke and how her state of being and brain were transformed because of it. And now I'm curious and wondering what his being and state of mind is. So I immediately ordered her book on Amazon called My Stroke of Insight in hopes that it will give me more insight on what's going on with him.

The video also drew me into my purpose and this entire situation of my parents moving in with me and the questioning of my dad having this ailment and what it means to me and why I'm attracting this. Obviously there's something I must learn out of this situation, but what is it? It draws me to my family and even myself and how we can become frustrated at times with the things he does, but then it makes me curious as to why he gets along with me so well and I can be patient with him (most of the time). So I'm feeling as though my path in this is starting to be revealed more as I begin to make these discoveries. What is my tone with him? What is my body language? Is he understanding me? And a lot of this can lend itself to other things in life. Then I feel as though another part of my purpose is to help my family in understanding his plight and to aid everyone in their patience, understanding, love, gratitude as I get closer and closer to those feelings and emotions so will they. These are the things going through my mind.  And Jill's whole journey was getting to this place of nirvana or "Inner Peace." I'm excited to continue to work towards my own inner peace and finding that nirvana and learning how to continually live in the NOW. The key here she says is to "Pay attention to your thoughts." A lot of the books and videos I've read speak to that and I'm always working on my thoughts and words...and now more so my emotions and feelings that also play a role in those thoughts. Now I'm always wondering how did I attract the things or situation I have around me, and working on being able to control that for the good of all!

Okay, I can keep going on forever ...I should really get to bed. Ready to close my eyes...more to come!!!